a while ago and a short time ago i had thoughts about wanting to marry you, but i told myself that i’d need to have sex with somebody else first. you were my first, i didn’t know what else was out there. you’re perfect to me, but what about all the experiences i didn’t have? i won’t ever fuck without feelings or get nervous about flirting with someone or get super excited that you want to spend time with me.
that’s going away and i’m growing way more content with a life just with you and i thought i’d be scared of that but i’m not anymore